prayer to the god of aces

2014-08-05 17.25.22

i have decided to stop

grousing when i play

cards with family when

the cards don’t deal my

way i will no longer live

as if i had some unfair

disadvantage, but

instead enjoy

the happiness i see

on other people’s faces

and believe the gods of kings

and queens and serfs have

dealt me thus because they

know

my skills’ enough to overcome

my wayward luck

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rocks and roots

rocksandrootsi make a temporary home
for just the afternoon
where rocks and roots
embrace so tightly by the
stream they become one
another they change
for each other

here at the water’s edge
i find a pool for mermaid
dipping in, a place
where love gets in
and for a while I pray
for you  and willfully
ignore your messages

i pull the layers off
and slide in naked
choosing gratitude not shame
author-ity not institution
integrity not law
become the huntress and the
virgin who renews her wholeness

we cannot make each other whole
but recognize a kindred soul
hold on like rocks and roots
that grow together
make the bank where
what was once the hidden lakes
and what was once the snow
becomes the cooling pool
becomes the laughing brook

the reason for my writer’s block

picky-eater_thumbMy mind is like a finicky eater. My mind child comes reluctantly to the table, and I offer her things to eat- memories so sweet, secrets so juicy, and tales so nuanced and tender that I think she can’t fail to consume them. But my mind child just picks at everything. She makes faces and sighs, and sneaks sentences under the table to the dog when I’m not looking. She picks up a single word, like a grape, and peels it delicately before licking it and then squeezing it between her fingers until it pops loose and flies across the table. She stirs the chapter I have lovingly prepared for her around like mashed potatoes and drags her fork through it before looking up and asking if there isn’t anything else to choose from. Sometimes she even scoots down off her chair and goes rummaging through the cupboards in search of something better. There’s a box of writing prompts in there that have some possibilities, but she just shakes it once and checks the expiration date. These prompts, apparently, have grown a little stale. She doesn’t even consider the nutritious sacks of memories on the pantry shelf. Writing is far too difficult when you have to start from scratch, even if you have the best ingredients.

the wild strawberry

800px-Indian_strawberry444not every story of enlightenment
extols the absence of desire

the only time you'll ever have
is now and finds you here

hanging on a cliff edge
a tiger above you
a tiger below

no hope
two mice are
chewing on the only vine
you cling to, panic
if you want to, try
to climb to safety, but
there isn't any

there is one thing
only one thing
hanging, still

within your grasp

a wild strawberry
taste it, savor
the sweet red fruit
enjoy the space between
the tigers, the sweetest
time there ever was is 

now

the sun god in the underworld

Fire Promptfrom the great above
you open your ear
to the great below

its calling your name

the call gets louder
echoing, ringing
shouting, beating
pounding in your mind
even if no one else
can hear it

to answer could mean death
to ignore it most certainly
will kill you

well meaning friends might
try a hundred times to
talk you out of it

it isn't their call

unknowing but compelled
aching but resolved
you cross the threshold

every gate is locked until
you let go all the things
you hold most dear,
the final gate finds you
with no defenses left

the warrior that you are
can finally say today
i die and gates
fall open, awed by
your despairing strength

Labyrinth Life

labryrinth
i walk the labyrinth
try not to overthink it
feel it, breathe it
let it be itself
i see only so far
as the next step
trusting its the right one

i give love fully
to the present moment
trust that every step
along the path has purpose
though it seems to meander
like a crooked mile

i take joy fully
bear witness to the journey
unfolding, savor the sweetness
of singing moments knowing 
they end

i breathe through wrenching
moments, witness the tragedy
knowing it too has 
an end

i walk gratefully
give thanks to
goddess and god

the ones who set
me on this path
this life, i pray
my soul be worthy
of the authenticity
that love demands
some say "this way
is truth, walk in it
our fathers marked
a straight and narrow
highway" any other path
winding its way to 
the soul, not to the
sky, judged folly

and yet

i know no other path
except the one my 
heart has forged

i seek not glory
nor success nor
heaven's gates but
only what love 
asks

then when i have
walked life's journey
full, i will lie down
in that sweet center
in that precious truth